Private thoughts

(sings) "I'll always thinkg of u inside of my private thoughts. The very thought of u makes me wanna get undressed. I wanna be with u inspite of what my heart says"

- Man aint that the truth! What I would give for 1 more chance at romance. Thoughts of u having ur hand gulide across my thigh as u reach behind my neck than into my pants, pulling me in tight and im holding ur heart once again in my hands.

U can leave the relationship but nooo baby!! Not the sex! Lets admit we can still do it, I mean who has to know? Its not the sex that didnt workout. It was the relationship! SHIT!!!

Please excuse my private thoughts, i mean im taken ur taken. But, fuck who cares?? LEts just be naked. Yeah I said it! Cuz I usually always think of u inside of my private thoughts. Find myself wanting to go on walks just so that i can let my mind run loose with thoughts of u.

Imagining u walking along side me. Dang I miss u baby. Aint it something how no amount of words can take us back to where we used to be and no amount of explaining will really say what u really mean. So I imagine..

I let my mind do wat it does best... think! If I close my eyes ur beautiful face I can visualize n at times my mind does cross lines and I see how our bodies used to fit together.

But I refuse to be a female wishing on a star, or allowing myself to lose my sanity. So i dust this off, its just a feeling!! Nevermind my private thoughts!!!

time wasted

7 yrs and this is how u go about things.. 7 yrs of feelings.. 7 yrs of time wasted. All that for nothing? I paid u respect thru all ur little phases. Patiently waited. Not even enough decentcy to call and tell me? Every1 but me knew.. It wasnt even u who told finally told me. Sure we had out ups and downs. Yes we've had chances with others and even almost did. Time waits for no1 isnt that wat u said? Guess u ment it. So many times we drifted. I found a love or two but so did u. Back in each others lives. We had the chance. Take it slow is wat i told u. But all that talk was just that!! I wasnt ready my heart was still hurting. And u took that wound and cut it deeper! U say I havent Changed. But Nigga, ur the Playa. Better her than me!! (now she has ur baby)

U & Me Nomore

I blamed u 4 breaking a heart that was never whole.

I came to u with holes so deep u should of seen straight to my soul.

Had fresh stab wounds still open on my back.

U reached with ur hand and I reached back.

We traveled up and down memory lane never really forgiving the ones who caused us this pain. So we accepted love at our convience and rejected it just as easily.

What were we looking for? qualities in each other the other was searching for.

Strength in different areas.

My weakness's ur strengths and ur weakness's my strength.

Truth is we're only as strong as we handle each situation.

Bcuz u neva know how strong u are til strong is what u gotta b!

Spent days and nights searchin. lurkin. inlove but not with the right person.

How do we know what a perfect match is if no1's perfect?

Sharing similar pain became conflict of interest.

Why did we rush into this? I love u.. I love u 2 but wats love?

We had no clue! wat do we do?

Bcuz my hearts in pieces and I still want to try but I was clearly over looking the obvious.

U fell in love with weed well I was looking for a natural high.

U dwelled in pain well i was trying to forgive myself and looked for bettered days.

U fell for him.

I fell for her.

Friends we cant be nomore!

2 YR ANNIVERSARY 9/7/09

DANG THIS GIRL
SHE GOT ME SITTING BACK ASKING MY SELF HOW THIS ALL HAPPENED.
LIKE BRITTANY SPEARS TALKING TO MYSELF LIKE OOOOPPS I DID IT AGAIN!
LETTING GO MARY J'S "MY WHOLE WORLDS UPSIDE DOWN"
SINGING DEBRAH COX "HOW DID U GET HERE?"
BUT ON SOME REAL SHIT!
"IT WAS PAIN B4 PLEASURE."
FLAWS AND ALL! "IM A TRAIN WRECK IN THE MORNING, A BITCH IN THE AFTERNOON, WHEN I NEED ATTENTION I TEND TO NAG"
YOU UNDERSTAND N THATS WHY I LOVE YOU.
BABY, TO ANSWER 50'S 21 QUESTIONS!?
YES, I WOULD! Y CUZ I SHOULD!
THIS AINT NO MUSHY LOVE POEM, JUST A LETTER FROM ME TO U!
LETTING U KNOW BABY IM THINKING OF YOU!
I ONCE WAS TOLD WHEN U LOVE SOMEONE LET THEM GO! BUT HELL NAH! I KEEP U CLOSE!

SEE I READ ON SOMEONES MYSPACE SOMETHING ABOUT SEARCHING THRU STONES TO FIND A DIAMOND,
WELL I SEARCHED THRU THEM AND LOVED ALONG THE WAY.
BUT I WAS LEAD STRAIGHT TO U!
SO NOW DO ME A FAVOR!
"LOVE ME LIKE U'LL NEVER SEE ME AGAIN!'

i found my smile again when the look in your eyes mirrored the love i once gave being reflected back on me. Souls touched like perfect chemistry. Gray skies once tried to turn blue but the sun never shined thru. I found my smile again a hot summer day, sweat drippin down my face, i was scared to find real love. Cuz the last love was pain. I didnt wanna love again til u brought my smile back again!

This is old but hey Oldies but Goodies
Old loves make for good poetry lol


I was stuck...
stuck in some shit i never felt b4.
All I know is my heart kicked a million beats a minute,
my mind was spinning, my hands were shaking, my legs got weak.
Back to you I went for a recovery.
You were my remedy.
Addicted.
My drug of choice.
Cuz when you entered my life Aahhhaa what a high!
but nobody warned me that this high would wear off
and that an addiction would began.
Your kisses shot loves drug into me.
Contaminating my body with such a remarkable soothing sensatation.
Only allowing me to breathe and feel you.
An on going battle.
You were in full control.
How did I get to this point?
The cause and cure is you!
You were everything wrong for me that felt so right.
The way sociaty works is like.
Who takes to those with scars and battered hearts?
Weak ppl arent willing.
So instead we turned to each other.
Thinking we knew each other cuz our hearts yearned for the same humanly
love that the other craved yet lacking.
So naturally,
I clinged to you like a crackhead on crack.
And no baby dnt go just give me one more chance.
Like a crackhead begs for one last hit.
Now my world spinning cuz ur gone.
I beg u come back to sooth me.
How can this be?
I cant get over you if your the remedy I turn to for a brokenheart you shattered.
but than again NO dont go.
Just one more kiss so my body can feel that love drug u injected in me once b4.
Your my poison.
I cant take anymore!!
Cuz though you claim ur done u come back for more.
Like a dope dealer without its main customer!

Seeing Sounds album by N*E*R*D

Seeing Sounds album by N*E*R*D

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BABYGIRL WAS BROUGHT INTO THIS WORLD ALREADY HAVING THE WEIGHT OF THE WORLD ON HER SHOULDERS.

A CRACK BABY RAISED BY OTHER MEMEBERS OF HER FAMILY OTHER THAN MOMMY AND DADDY.

FOLLOWING CLOSE IN THE FOOT STEPS OF HER MOTHER SHE NEVER EVEN KNEW.

SHE DIDNT ASK TO BE BORN DIDNT ASK TO BE ANOTHER CRACK BABY BROUGHT INTO SOCIETY.

BUT HANDLES THE WORLD JUST LIKE ANYONE ELSE. TO THE BEST OF HER ABILITY. CRYIN OUT FOR THE LOVE AND AFFECTION SHE GRAVES YRT LACKIN. DISPITE HAVING ONE GOOD FRIEND, GRANDPARENTS AND A CLOSE COUSIN.

DADDY WASNT EVER MAN ENOUGH TO SHOW HER LOVE AND AFFECTION SO SHE LOOKS FOR LOVE IN OTHER MEN.

BUT SEE SHE'S BISEXUAL AND JUST LIKE HOW DADDY WASNT THERE.

GUESS WAT?

MOMMY WASNT.

SEE BABYGIRL TRYS HARD TO BE SOMETHING OTHER THAN JUST A CRACK BABY. GOING TO SCHOOL TO BECOME SOMETHING.

BUT STUCK ON SMOKIN THAT GREEN STUFF AND WALKS AROUND JUST LOOKIN FOR THAT DOE BOI THAT THUG MAKIN MONEY.

IT MAKES NO SINCE TO ME THAT SOMEONE WHO WANTs TO BECOME SOMETHING WOULD WASTE HER TIME ON A MONEY PHENE..

A CAR CRASH COULD OF ALMOST TOOK HER LIFE.

WOULDA DIED WITHOUT KNOWING THE WORTH OF HER OWN LIFE.

FINALLY THOUGHT SHE FOUND LOVE IN A MAN WHO REALLY GIVES A FUCK.

WITH GRANDMA RAISING HER CRACK BABY GRANDCHILD THE BEST SHE CAN.

DIDNT EVEN REALIZE SHE PUSHED HER INTO THIS MAN.

WHO PRETENDED HIS HAND WAS A HELPIN HAND.

I HATE REFERING TO HER AS A CRACK BABY BCUZ BY DOING SO...

IM BEING JUST LIKE THE REST OF SOCIETY.

BUT U CANT EXCAPE THE FACT THAT ITS TRUE REALITY.

SEE CUZ THIS SHE IS A FEMALE...

A YOUNG LADY...

AND MY PUNK ASS FRIEND!!

WHO BY THE MISTAKES OF MOMMY WAS BROUGHT INTO THIS WORLD ALREADY CARRYING THE WORLD ON HER SHOULDERS!

Title ME Happy!!!!

i been searching for a title to place on me..though i been living freely and open to the titles place on me.. but something tells me that ppl just cant exactly put a finger on me!

so read with ur minds open and carefully.. i was not place here on this earth to amaze u and be looked at as anything more than another outstanding human being! so why the fuck must u always try to title me...

if attracted to him or her whats it do u? guess the thought of not knowing has u wondering! "hey kree u are beautiful but i see u only like girls... are u bi sexual".. or the famous "hey kree, i see u have a girl... are u bi-sexual.. do u still like guys? how can i get in?" they act like im hurting there feelings! maybe i am!!

i guess no1 understands.. and is it my duty to explain my sexuality? im mean really? whats it to u if im happy?im with someone who loves me for me. im with someone who knows how to appreciate and fully accepts me even when she doesnt get me!

so how about this... if u wanna title me than title me "HAPpy!!" cuz rather im attracted to him or her! its all apart of where i feel im ment to be and for that im blessed to say i have accepted me!

so i am bi-sexual, lesbian, or striaght just hooping on the trend of liking women? who cares.. it dont matter to me! y because damn it i am "HAPPy!!"